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Thursday, October 26, 2006



Some things just don't change, don't you think?

There are times when you try to see beyond those things, make excuses for the person and try to make youself believe that they can be/is a better person. But at the end of the day, it's the same old shit. People just don't change. A leopard can never change its spots.

You feel happy for the person, because you can see the person maturing and becoming more than what you thought possible. Despite all that has happened, you somehow managed to convince yourself to believe that he's more than that, better than your own as well as your friend's judgements. But then, you get proven otherwise.

Seriously, I had so much faith in you. But ur still the same person i knew eh, u never changed. And at the rate ur going, u never will. So i'm glad i made my decision then, and i don't regret one bit, because if i didn't, i would be living in hell now.

Exam period is like hell. And this is the worse sem so far. Urgh overload 5 units... Damn 7 sian! Oh well, I really hope i can manage to scrape through these two weeks and go back to Brunei.

-n-


C'est la vie...10/26/2006 10:07:00 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006



Is it always wise to burn bridges, even though at that point in time, it seemed like the right thing to do? I've burnt bridges that i shouldn't, sided people i shouldn't have cared, and the only thing left to do is regret.

I managed to finish one assignment, even though i din think i could. But din manage to do much studying after. I went to bubble last night. Was the same i suppose, nothing much new. I can't wait to go back to Brunei actually =) hehe. Can't wait to see my baby.

Everyone is so interrelated here. Somehow somewhere, a friend would know another friend who happens to be the friend of someone else's friend. And maybe coz of that, shit spreads. And sometimes, its also hard to trust people because of this. Do you believe the person you're talking to, or the things people are saying about that person? Do you give him the benefit of a doubt or cut the person out of your life?

-n-


C'est la vie...10/15/2006 10:00:00 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006



Well, its been 2 weeks plus since my bf left. The first week was hard, couldn't sleep, barely ate. I basically lived off fresh air, water and sunshine and u know =) My assignments are pouring in like crazy, i thought i was gonna be screwed over but thats to miracles, i'm given an extra chance so i am gonna try to TRY and do my work.

For the past 2.5 weeks, we (I used the term 'we', for obvious reasons) have been hanging out w Deron and the gang. Its a nice change I suppose. I spent the first week (trying to) dota the night away and since they're the studying type, they sort of inspire me to remember to do my work too, which is good. We've had 2 weekends, in which they were supposed to go back to Clayton to study but Nooooo.... because of Ying, they drove back to the city. See la Ying. It's all your fault!

Godskitchen came n went. It was erm... horrible. Omg.. the music was so progressive... Even when they played harder music, it still sounded trancey =.=" Was a complete waste of time and money. The story was, I wasn;t even supposed to go. I planned not to go because the one last yr sucked. But, Braddie, the Sight-Troubled Llama Man who's gonna take over the world unless we feed him lots of cheesecake (strawberry, i think), bought my ticket beforehand. And me being the forgetful bird that I am, forgot to inform him that I did not want to go. So i had to go, and i made Ying go who made Deron n Vyron come. I felt kinda bad when i was there, but then again, Deron n Vyron seemed to be having fun. HAHA!! Deron was doing his usual disappearing act and we'll msg him "Home Base NOW!" for him to come back. Vyron was just happy and hyper. Well, til his feet started to hurt and yea.

Everyone who was anyone was there. Bryan (tsk tsk) came along w Azlan and I spent most of the night w Jian and it was fun. Nice catching up w him, which reminds me, its his birthday later and i have not showered. I was surprised that Marcus came too. Din think he was the raving type. And oh yea, Brad. Brad was pretty erm... gone. For a little while there, he was acting so retarded, i nearly cried laughing. First he tried to follow his friends to sit at the back of the arena, and when he can;t find them, he chose to sit beside 6 strangers (and i sat as well. i know. wth was i supposed to do?) then he turned to me and said "I dun think its them" swwwwt!!~~ =.=" Brad, seriously, this is the nicest time to make fun of yo, coz other times, i'm the one getting picked on >.<

Sometimes, its just hard to get people. First moment, they're your friend. Then suddenly, they shut you out. Then they are friendly again and then the same shit happens again. I've had enough of all this bullshit. I'm done trying to remain friends and shit like tat so i hope i'll never see your face again. there =) needed to get it off my chest. And dude, like seriously, make up ur mind. If u want to hate me, just do it from the beginning. Dun be my friend then hate me then be my friend then hate me again. That's plain pissy and stupid. And also, get a life, or a girlfriend. Isolation like that, will make people go mad but then again, u've spent ur whole life like that >.<

Maxie is jumping on me now... my adorable little baby is bald now. Well, coz Ying the smartass decided to trim her herself, which resulted in my poor baby being hacked up so badly we didn't even dare to bring her out and we had to rush her to a groomer to salvage what's left of her fur. Swwwt!!! But she's all nice smelling n clean now coz we bathed her yesterday. Mmmm... Smell so nice...

Well, nap time. i hope i cn update this before i forget my username again. haha!

-n-


C'est la vie...10/11/2006 01:36:00 PM