Saturday, October 06, 2007
It is the time of the year again, when *deng deng deng* ....
~!~!~!~GoD's KitChen~!~!~!~
is here again! Yea! But, I'm at home.. the very first time in 2 years since it all began... i'm at home. *deng deng deng* OKay, yes fine! I'm broke, and spending $95 on a ticket to an event which wasn't *great* for me would be pointless. But i'm sitting here feeling like crap. I dunno... maybe its coz i do enjoy it, to some certain degree... maybe its coz... well, everyone's gonna be there... maybe its coz i'm leaving soon, and i should go for old times' sake. But, eet iz tooo late, i zay! Tooo late! its gonna start soon anyway. Going now WOULD be pointless.
so i'm at home, blogging, sitting w maX, yeap. Great life. Despite the fact that i may have to start begging on the streets soon, i still have the energy to eBay all the time, not that i'm buying... its more like window 'internet' shopping. but it sucks! there's so many things i like but so little money! i seriously need some financial counseling lessons. Or maybe i should just stop being so 'bag-obsessed'.
OKay, i'm a self-confessed bag freak. I can buy 10 in one month and still find the need to want more. HAHAHA! and maybe i should stop talking about them too eh. Its not that I want to talk about bags or things i like, so often. its just that i talk a lot and when i talk, i need things to talk about and these are the things that interests me (among others) but i didn't realise it is such a crime to talk about it. Maybe i shouldn't say things like that because i Did make a promise, and it seems like i'm breaking it, which i am but i didn't do it on purpose. I just can't help it at times, and coz you're the only person there, it makes more sense to tel you abt it rather than the dog rite? But with all said and done, i am really going to try and remember this, and not mention it to your face anymore, if i can help it, for good.
i'm sick. the weather's bitching. But then again, it wouldn't be Melbourne without this weather. But feeling sick is shitty, which is probably why i feel shitty and keep having shitty dreams. Yeaps, i've been having weird dreams about missing a flight to Melbourne or being unable to come back here. As much as i try not to think about it (and yes, i have Not Yet come to terms with it), i guess it is starting to surface coz time is running out.
I suppose there's so much i could've done, but haven't yet done, so much i should've done differently but didn't get a chance, but i would not regret any of it. Because despite everything, i suppose being here, has been one of the most fulfilling moments in my life and i've learned so much (not Uni) and i know, for sure, i wouldn't be the person i am now, if i never left Brunei.
and Yes, i would miss everything and everyone here. Sometimes, there isn't much point thinking about what could've been, because it is a fact, that it never could be. Because time has run out.
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C'est la vie...
10/06/2007 09:41:00 PM
OKay, i'm a self-confessed bag freak. I can buy 10 in one month and still find the need to want more. HAHAHA! and maybe i should stop talking about them too eh. Its not that I want to talk about bags or things i like, so often. its just that i talk a lot and when i talk, i need things to talk about and these are the things that interests me (among others) but i didn't realise it is such a crime to talk about it. Maybe i shouldn't say things like that because i Did make a promise, and it seems like i'm breaking it, which i am but i didn't do it on purpose. I just can't help it at times, and coz you're the only person there, it makes more sense to tel you abt it rather than the dog rite? But with all said and done, i am really going to try and remember this, and not mention it to your face anymore, if i can help it, for good.